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This website, funded by the National Autistic Society(who are supporters of neurodiversity btw) lets you download legitimate diagnostic tools for assessing ASDs in a clinical setting free of charge. It’s all open source. What this means is that your therapist, psychologist or psychiatrist can give you a legitimate diagnosis without paying 2000 dollars for the ADOS.
Western Psychological Services owns copyrights to all the big name tests like ADOS and the ADI-R. Everytime their tests are used, royalties go to WPS. This is why diagnosis is so difficult to procure. NAS and ARC however are making it their mission to make diagnosis accessible to everyone.
Other open source diagnostic tools include the RAADS-R, Stroop Test, and the QGAS(which has been scanned online in three pages here: 1, 2, 3, scoring sheet).
All of these tests are used in diagnostic settings and they do not require special training DVDs. They are available for everyone!
This means that those of you who think you may be on the spectrum but worry that you can’t afford diagnosis(or your doctor says it’s too expensive to diagnose you) there are several legitimate approved diagnostic tools that you can do yourself or link to your doctor or therapistso they may administer it for you.
Other relevant test resources:
Jean Ayres Sensory processing Disorder Checklist
Rombergs Test(contains video for visual support)
Aspie Quiz which is gaining scientific traction
Memory and Cognition screening tests
Video on Girls with Asperger’s –
Video on emotions and alexithymia in Autism -
Video on Sensory Sensitivities (How we experience the world) –
Video on Sensory Overloads –
Again, if your doctor has trouble diagnosing you and you think you deserve a diagnosis, all of these tests have been either developed in and for clinical settings or are currently in the process of being proved useful for clinical settings. They are all free. Some you can do yourself. Others doctors can do with you without payment or test specific trainings.
I have collected all of these links here in one post so you may link your doctor, counselor or therapist the full array of tests.
It’s easy to be abusive when you’re carrying around past abuse; when you’re so invested in being a good person that someone saying “this thing you did was just awful” threatens your whole sense of self; when you think abusers are the scum of the earth and everything would be great if we could just set every one of them on fire. In short, when no one can confront you about the ways you’re being used by oppressive structures, you’re part of the problem. If you think being hijacked by ingrained cultural programming is something that only happens to bad, unenlightened people, you don’t notice when it’s happening to you. And you don’t have the emotional resources to cope with the realization that … sometimes you’re going to fuck up royally and other people will be hurt, and they won’t have the slightest obligation to forgive you. Because you know what? That happens.
Part of being the hero of your own story is owning up to the fact that sometimes you aren’t heroic at all, and apologizing, and changing, no matter how painful and hard that is.
a snippet from the comment chain of this post (cw for discussion of abuse) that i found particularly resonate
Do you ever think about all of the really nice drunk girls you’ve met in bathrooms and wonder how they are doing? I miss you all